I am so miserable cos my life is worthless?
I am a 29 years old woman who never had a boyfriend, I was always told the way I am ugly when growing up, I have zero self confidence, and I do feel ugly 90% of the time.
I struggle to support every one at home,since they are not working. I am highly qualified education wise, but I am so miserable cos it feels like everywhere I go people just tell me I am irritating them, they just dont want to be with me.
I am scared I will end up alone. At home they use me, my boss hates me, and thinks I am useless, nothing is working out in my life, everything I touch turns sour and unsuccessful, please advice me how to cope.
I feel like my life is worthless, I feel used and unappreciated. I dont know how long I can cope this way, I am even scared to be on my own, theres an urge that I should hurt myself, I dont want to commit suicide like my father but i dont see anything good about this life...
ANSWER BY VICTORIA
Perception is reality. And perception is influenced by many factors including the environment you grew up in, types of relationships you had, what others told you, schooling, culture, genetics and much more.
It seems as though you have been bombarded with negative messages all of your life and as a result you have come to believe all of the lies everyone told you. Weather you agree with them that you are ugly or not, I can tell you now that there is someone for everyone in this world and luckily we all have different tastes when it comes to finding a partner.
Its not so much what is happening that is making you feel so low, but rather how you choose to interprut it. Instead of internalizing all of the negative things going on, see them simply as they are 'other peoples opinions' everyone has opinions there like butt hole usualy full of crap....
What you need is a makeover on the inside to help you realise that you are as worthy as anyone to live a great life and fulfill all of your wants and desires. You can only ever attract to you that which you are, it is a universal law of attraction that like attracts like.
There are lots of great things about life, but to be able to realise that fact you must first believe that you are great!! Visualisation, meditation, positive affirmations and digesting positive images and thoughts are the first step in becoming at one with yourself.