I suffer from depression and I don't know how to follow my dreams?
I am 33, i am scared i am getting old although i am young at heart but sick of negative comments about age. I suffer from depression and procrastination. I am working in an area which bores me and i don't know how to follow my dreams. I want to travel and find a new job i'm interested in (i would like to help others or do something fun which inspires others but have no idea what, all my life i have had a mental block about it).
I have had a lot of stress, dealing with depression and people not being well in my family, i try to be positive in my daily life which i am most of the time but its like i am handling things rather than building and making things better (procrastination). A part of me is starting to feel its too late, i really don't want to feel like this, people say i am full of life and i don't know why i feel like this at 33, i don't want it to be too late, i missed out on so much when i was young and want to find myself and love.
I am confident in some ways but no really in my abilities and it is stopping me, i have previously had anxiety and depression and have been brought up by parents who have not been that ambitious so may be i lack role models.
I have no idea what to do, if i can decide and how to decide, to be more pro-active in following my dreams, is it to late, how do i do all this? i also want to find love and don't want people to think i am past it!