Is this rape? please help?
I am 15 years old and my i have been with this guy for three months now he is 17, the first three months have been amazing and we have not had sex yet, or done anything else i feel im still young and there's no rush i wanted my first time to be special.
It was a week ago now and I went round to my boyfriends house to watch a film and just be together really, he said he had a "surprise" for me, we sat on his bed and cuddled for a while then he started to be all weird and force full, he told me he loved me and that if I done this one thing he would love me even more(ive always been insecure when it comes to boys) so he got on top of me and started to push up on me. I told him to get of and that it was not the right time but he kept on going then he pulled my top and bra off and started doing stuff to my breasts he then took his own pants of and was asking me if I like what I saw, I begged him to stop and by this time I was upset because I was so shocked, he said if i didn't take my shorts of he would be angry and I would make him do something he didn't want to do.
So I did and he started to lick and suck on my vagina it felt good but I was to scared to enjoy it and then asked me if I was ready I was screaming at him to stop but he would but then he....
I wanted him to stop but he wouldn't so I eventually just took it.
Before I left he said that we should do that all the time and he loved me. I am so confused and need some advice on what to do, do I buy a pregnancy test?
was this rape because he was my boyfriend? I dont want to end things with him 1. because i still love him 2. im scared this will happen again if hes angry, i just feel loads of different emotions and need some advice on what to do?